Happy

I had a losing day today in sim-trading. Down $-241 on twelve trades. Only had 4 winners. The reason I'm happy is that all 8 losing trades were stop-outs. I didn't let a single one exceed the stop. In fact, between 2:30 and 4:00 pm, I had six out of eight practice trades end with stop losses. I closed the day with 4 straight losses.
In most of the losing trades, I had opportunities to scalp gains, one of them for 20 cents. But I am trying to hang in on my trades for bigger gains. Next to me on the wall is taped a sign that says, "Focus on Process, Not Results." I posted a photo of it on the blog not long ago. What doesn't show in the photo is what is written below it... "Exit only on Stop Outs, Volume spikes in winning trades, or at the Market Close." And that has been where I am trying to put my efforts. For now, I am trying to avoid using my intuition for exiting a stock. This has frequently been at my own peril, as it was today. Many times I had a feeling that I was on the wrong path... but I held firm and didn't exit. I'm focusing on process, not wins and losses. It's training to combat anxieties associated with Relief-Exiting and avoiding stop losses. And it's working to some degree... as the number of stop out losses mounted, I was silently coaching myself to relax, focus on process, stay in the moment; no worries about what came before and don't anticipate the future. Only think about my stop line, the one thing I can control. And it was working... In the 3 years I've been messing with the market, I've never taken more than 3 stops in a row before my resolve weakened. Before last week, I had only done two in a row before folding up and letting my stops lapse. I am getting stronger through my losses. I am always in danger of relapse, that's my personality. For now, I just get in the trade and say, "One Trade at a Time."

Where else do I need improvement based on today and virtually every other day I've done this? 11 of the 12 trades I attempted were counter-trend trades (reversal trades). This has been my bias since I began trying to learn this craft. The one trade I attempted in the direction of the overall upward trend of the day was a winner. On range days, I am in my comfort zone and my momentum reads are highly accurate. On trend days, I get slammed; punished by the uni-directional market. When reversal trades don't materialize for me, I cannot seem to surrender to the market, exit, and re-enter in the direction of the momentum. I am stubborn in my intent to be correct and it shows on days like today. It is just another way for my personality to not accept losing, just like my difficulties with taking stop losses.

I have a long way to go before I am ready to trade my live account again. But for today, I am happy with my discipline; the focus on process instead of results. Tomorrow is a new day. One trade at a time. One day at a time.